Oh my precious baby

27 Hours..........That is how long I had to wait till I could see my little angel after he was born. With the Preeclampsia they had to put me on Magnesium Sulfate for 24hours after having Brayden, this was to keep me from having a seizure, yes intense I know! I remember as soon as they took me off and moved me to post partum, I told the nurse " I want to go see my son, NOW!" So they got me a wheelchair and pushed me down to the NICU. That was the first time of doing the 3 minute scrubbing process you have to do before going in. The first time that 3 minutes seemed like forever! Then Mom and I went in. I remember standing there looking at you, Oh you were just so perfect and so little! Then Mom said, "well Mommy are you going to say Hi to your baby?" That was before she could notice I was so choked up and tears streaming down my face, I was speechless. Then while I was crying I looked at you, you have tears in your eyes. I remember telling you "So are you going to cry because Mommy is crying?" I think the hardest part of seeing you there was just how I wanted to pick you up and hold you close,but I couldnt.... That night though they did move Brayden from level 3 down to level 2. That was the best thing I could have heard that wonderful day.

The Day I first laid eyes on you!

I remember that day very well. I remember going into the hospital on July 8, 2009 not knowing how to feel. Only knowing that I was going to be in the hospital till my precious little man was born, which wasnt suppose to be till September 15th btw. I was so nervous not knowing what was in store for me. So in to the hospital I went Mom and Dad came by after they got off work that day. They were such a great help while I was in the hospital. Mom stayed with me everynight the two weeks I was in there, except for one night. I enjoyed having her there to help me through that time. Everyday was like a ticking clock, knew you were coming before September 15th but WHEN? Then July 18th came.... They had me connected to the monitors all day checking on the little angel in my tummy. At about 10pm on July 18th I was moved into labor and delivery so that I could have my own personal nurse to monitor me.I knew that couldnt be a good sign. I didnt sleep well at all that night, was so worried but I also had a strange peace that only God can provide. On the morning of July the 19th the nurse came in and was talking to me about the fact that she had noticed some things while monitoring overnight that concerned her and she was just waiting for the Doctor to look over them. About 10:40am the doctor came in the room and informed us that we were going to be having a baby, TODAY! I was shocked then my dad just had to ask, "So this is happening today?" Then the doctor replied "Yes probably in the next couple hours." I think we all had no clue what to say. The nurses came in and started preping me for surgery. I was so nervous, scared and excited. I remember at one point Dad came in and I was just sitting there starring into space. He asked me if I was ok, I just looked at him and started crying saying, "Its all just happening so fast." Then it was time, my Dad was in the surgery with me. There beside his baby girl to support her in the big step in her life. I remember how the Doctors were talking about their swimming pools and just other day to day things. Then at 12:51pm I saw you... They carried you over to the table, I just remember saying to myslef "Cry Brayden,Cry!" Then there it was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard, your cry, you taking the first breath of life, my son! I remember I couldnt control myself, oh I had so many emotions coming through that I cried. Then they brought you over and let me see you for a breif moment before taking you to the NICU. Oh and how beautiful and perfect you were, my precious little gift from God.